During my twenties & thirties, I was very caught up on a set of values that kept me separated from my “Source.” I didn’t realize it at the time, but these values had more to do with boosting my “ego” than with being connected to “Source.” I actually believed that Source had nothing to with achieving my dreams, goals, and accomplishments. Values such as wealth, achievements, pleasure, adventure, and earning the respect of others were my personal creation and I got all of the credit. As I look back at those times, I believe I came across as an egotistical prick to family, friends and all other people closest to me. But deep down inside I was suppressing my true self because “ego” was lying to me. I was having a difficult time maintaining deep long-lasting relationships that mattered because the instant my relationships became conflicted in any way, I would walk away instead of listening to my heart and staying. For me, listening to my heart meant being vulnerable, weak, and out of my control. Making decisions from my head instead of from my heart continuously fed and justified the existence of my ego.
Then, one day in my late thirties, I had an epiphany. I realized I had a wife and three young daughters, and that these relationships were the most valuable aspect of my life. I shifted my values from things that fed my ego to values that gave the credit to Source. I found myself making decisions from the heart (love) instead of from the mind (ego). Now, in my early forties, my values shifted to activities that include spending time with my family, being honest with my feelings, spirituality, personal peace, and having a sense of purpose.
Now, I realize that you need to put your attention on making life better for someone else. To touch someone’s life is more valuable than any amount of money. What matters is that we put our attention on “how may I serve.” This kind of thinking means we’re living with purpose. I’ve learned to become the observer & step back. If you live in the process of trusting where the Source is taking you, you detach from the outcome.
If you have passion & enthusiasm for something, that’s Source speaking to you. Destiny is imposed on you. When you trust in yourself, you’re trusting in the very wisdom that created you. When you die you’ll return to Source. But, you don’t need to physically die to get there. You can die to your Ego & live from the space of perfect love right here, right now!
Keep Hope Alive,
E. Eric Enriquez